The Studio

What the hell is wrong with me? I've been walking around with my own personal rain cloud.
Definitely grumpy bear.

I haven't gotten into my rhythm here in Chicago. I've been in an anti-social mood these past two days, in addition to some other things. Boo for me! I'm hoping that it's been because I've been tired. It takes quite a bit of energy to smile, be cheerful, make an effort to meet new people, be social, and be "on" in general. ick.

And, am I just being naive in thinking that listening skills, note-taking skills, question-asking skills are all things everyone in the working-world, ok, at least in the consulting industry should already have....like....i dunno....before they were hired? Or maybe I'm being naive in thinking/hoping that my company wouldn't $4000 to send me out here for two weeks to "learn" how to do these things.

Ok, ok. In all fairness, that was only a summary of today. I'm sure it'll get better, I just have to get over my general negative attitude.

So complainy! Sheesh.

I better head to bed, else I get more grumpy tomorrow.

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Buffy:
Every single night the same arrangement
I go out and fight the fight.
Still I always feel the strangest strangement
Nothing here is real, nothing here is right.
I've been making shows of trading blows
just hoping no one knows
That i've been going through the motions
walking through the part.
Nothing seems to penetrate my heart

I was always brave and kind of rightous,
Now I find I'm wavering.
Crawl out of your grave you'll find this fight,
just doesn't mean a thing.

Vamp: She ain't got that swing

Buffy: Thanks for noticing!

Vamps/Demon: She does pretty well with things from hell
but lately we can tell she's been going through the motions.
Faking it somehow.
She's not even half the girl she....ow

Buffy: Will I stay this way forever?
Sleep walk through my life's endeavor.

Hot Guy: How can i repay you...?

Buffy: whatever!
I don't want to be...
going through the motions,
loosing all my drive
I can't even see, if this is really me
and i just want to be....
Alive!