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Many of my friends who have known me for a while know that it took me nearly 19 years before I was able to admit that I'm spoiled. My parents spoil me, my cousins spoil me, my friends spoil me. I'm ok with it; I appreciate it. I still contend that I'm not a brat as a result of it. I hope you agree.

Now, it has taken almost 24 years for me to realize that, by golly, I deserve to be spoiled. Well, ok, I deserve to be spoiled as much as the next person.

Not only that, I'm perfectly capable of spoiling myself as well. Until I find that guy who's just absolutely crazy about and will stop at no end to spoil me, I'm perfectly content spoiling myself and letting my family spoil me.

I've rather enjoyed the single life these past 5 weeks. Well, except for the occasional ten minutes here and there where I think to myself, "yea, it'd be nice to have a significant other". But then it passes -- I'm over it.

Reading "He's Just Not That Into You" was more beneficial than I thought. I want a guy, who's totally into me, because, well, I've got a lot going for me. And, even if I meet these amazingly interesting (and hot) guys (which I have been), but they're not into me, I'm not going to beat myself up about it, or stoop or mope, wishing and hoping...cuz it really is their loss.

There, my self-affirmation of the week -- only difference, I really do believe this. Don't know what's been my deal lately -- why on earth did I forget this?

If you're wondering what sparked this revelation, it was the news that one of my friends from high school (the least expected guy) was recently married. It was also hearing another close friend contemplate marriage. Gah, I'm sooo not there, I'm loving the independence. Oh, and not having met THE one is a contributing factor too. In the meantime, I'm just gonna live it up.

To all my single friends out there. You are HOT, you are INTELLIGENT, you are TALENTED, and you are a CATCH. Don't you ever forget it. Wait for that special person who will never forget it to come along. And until he or she does, go have some FUN!!!

Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, I saw debris
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone left the puzzle undone
That's the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down
Don't you bring me down today...

No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what they say
(no matter what they say)
When the sun is shining through
Then the clouds won't stay