The Studio

I love people watching. Sometimes I'll just plop myself down somewhere with lots of foot traffic, and I'll watch people go by. It's fun to make up back stories for the folks shuffling along, pre-occupied with their microcosm, oblivious to the outside world. I'm sure I'm much the same way -- but still it's fun to watch others go about.

I try to figure out what may have happened in these people's past that made them the way they are when I see them. How did the affluent lady, with the world seemingly at her will, get so caustic and bitter? What gave the lonely old man such a sunny disposition? These are the thoughts that I ponder as I people watch.

Sometimes, when I'm too busy to go out and people watch, the same thoughts turn inwards and onto the people I know -- often my family. Those of you who know my mother, or have heard me speak of her, know that she's the worst paranoid in the world. Mostly her paranoia is directed at me and things that could hurt me or go wrong in my life. Yet, few of you know that she was a fiesty, fearless, and vivacious young lady. She was probably a lot like me when she was my age -- pig-headed, iron-willed, adventurous, sausy...

Yet, somewhere between then and now, life happened. Something in her life made her suspicious, paranoid, sometimes irrational, sometimes cranky. What was it? And don't you dare say Motherhood! =P

What's there to prevent the very same thing from happening to me? What if I grow up to be someone I wouldn't like if I met them today? Who's to say what the future has in store for any of us? How much control do you have over life, and how much control does life have over you?

So much to ponder...

What's this life anyway?
What's it to you and me?
What's it to anyone?
Who are we supposed to be?
Make me a storybook
Write me away from here
I need a different now

Where we can wear each other for awhile
I'll len you my tears if I could borrow a smile
I'll get through tomorrow somehow today
Happy After...

Once upon these days

There's four roads to anywhere
Four ways to everything
We were unbreakable
We spoke our destiny
Let's take a moment out
Go were we never go
Let's make a new world now

Where we can wear each other for awhile
I'll lend you my tears if I could borrow your smile
We'll get through tomorrow somehow today
Happy After...

Once upon these days

Then one day we'll find
when we're looking back at this time
Wondering how we've come so far from this
When we close our eyes

What's this life anyway
What's it to you and me
What are we doing here
Who are we supposed to be
I'll take a better world
I'll take anything
I'll take our little world now

Where we can wear each other for awhile
I'll lend you my tears if I could borrow your smile
We'll get through tomorrow somehow today
Happy After...

Once upon these days...