It's Not My Time??
I've never been one of those people who chalks life events up to fate, or providence, or even necessarily God's will. I am too much of a control freak to relinquish that kind of power to an external power. If I fail to accomplish something, I seldom comfort myself by saying that it just wasn't meant to be; much of me believes that I failed to accomplish that thing because, well, because I failed. There must have been something that was in my control that I failed to do or something that I did poorly.
Naturally, I take the same approach towards dating, even though in my head I know that I shouldn't and have been told many times that I shouldn't. But it's such an ingrained part of me, it's hard to depart from my usual MO.
Recently, I've started giving myself over to the idea that maybe, despite all my greatest efforts, I'm not meant to find that special someone yet because there are so many things I'm meant to accomplish before settling down. Perhaps when my attention is undivided, I am better positioned to affect the kind of change that I am inspired to reach for. Perhaps of all that I desire, I've just been chasing the wrong thing.
Perhaps it just truly isn't meant to be...
yet, I hope...
1 Comments:
Hi Trang,
I was blog-walking and came across your blog and this post. I think of Elizabeth I (and the movie). My mom also tells me that many of the greatest geniuses of the world were not married, such as Leonardo da Vinci. Also that there's a reason why nuns and monks are celibate. All of these people are devoting themselves to something greater than a love of one person. I don't know other specific examples in history, but it's something interesting to think about. :)
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