Previous Posts


Archive







food for thought...

What are you filling your waking hours with...?

Day Reconstruction Method




Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day

thankful

...for strawberry shortcake ice cream (especially when it's a surprise)

thankful

...for sunshine! (even when it prevents me from sleeping in)

thankful

...for good friends
...for food to share among friends
...for late night conversations
...for dishwashing machines!

thankful

...for piping hot Krisy Kreme donut samples that practically melt in your mouth. mmmmm

thankful

...for my chivalrous and sometimes even sweet roommate

thankful

...for free bagel Wednesdays

thankful

...for dim sum and awesome lunching buddy

thankful

...for strawberry ice cream and hugs on days you really need it

thankful

...for not feeling guilty about not having anything to do...

Ahhh!!!

Who knew that Palo Alto living was like living in the wilderness?? Tonight, when Evan and I came back from the grocery store, we had to stop in the driveway to allow a raccoon to pass. BUT, it didn't pass! It slowly walked, no sauntered, up the drive way. The masked bandit kept looking back at us to see if we were following it. When we got out of the car, we had to make a mad dash for the stairs, for fear of crossing paths with the possibly rabid creature, since Evan's flashlight was out of batteries and we had no stick. Sigh. More bizarreness in an already bizarre day.

I have to admit it was somewhat amusing.

Bizarre

Ok, I know I said I was going to focus on the good things that happen in a day, but today has just been too weird -- mostly in a bad way. Honestly, it had so much potential to be a good day too. I woke up, and it was sunny outside; I had nothing I had to do today except lounge around. Surely, these were all makings of a fantastic day. Sadly, it was not to be.

It started off with a trip to the Original Pancake House in Los Altos. I was pretty excited because I haven't been there in a long time. I think the last time I was there, it was after opening practice sometime last year. I really like the food there, so I was looking forward to it.

When we got there, there were a bunch of people waiting for a table -- way more than I'd ever seen in all my visits there. Must be because I had never eaten there on a Sunday. We had to wait for about half an hour before getting a table. Ok, waiting for half an hour wasn't so bad -- I didn't mind it too much, it didn't seem like all that long. We were quickly served our drinks and the waitress was friendly. As we waited for our food, Evan and I chatted about the decor and how the place really lacked character. From the outside, it had so much more potential. Then we pondered whether there existed diners where everyone knows everyone else -- like Luke's place in Gilmore Girls. I speculated that such places existed in small towns, like Star's Hollow.

Each time the servers came out of the kitchen, I hoped it was our food, but each time I was disappointed. I'd finished half of my Chai Latte, and still no food in sight. Tables that were seated after us had gotten their food. The table next to us was served, had finished their meal, paid and left, and we still had no food. All we had ordered was an omelette and some pancakes -- nothing too fancy, really. After waiting for about half an hour, the waitress came by to apologize that our food was taking so long and that it was coming momentarily. Momentarily meant another fifteen minutes of waiting. Honestly, someone should NEVER have to wait for 45 minutes before getting their food. By the time the food arrived, I wasn't hungry anymore because I had drank an entire Chai Latte. To boot, we had to be leaving because Evan needed to be at the start of his raid by 2:00. Really though, I couldn't believe that our food took so long. I felt bad for our waitress because she seemed really distressed about the situation, which was totally out of her control. When she brought the food to our table, we asked for her to box it up. She must have felt really bad cuz she comped us $5 on our bill. It was a nice gesture. We still left her a decent sized tip, off of the original amount because we could tell it was really out of her control. There's only so much yelling you can do at the kitchen staff.

I couldn't think of a single thing that could have happened in the kitchen that would have caused our food to be so slow. Especially considering that other people were getting their foods, but clearly not everyone. I was also really glad to see that all the other people around us who weren't getting food were taking it so well. It speaks to the good nature of people on Sundays, when they have no better place to be.

The second bizarre thing that happened today is that I received a random call (and somewhat inappropriate one) from a complete stranger. This person, in full vietnamese, started off asking me for details about a leadership camp for which I am a bay area contact. I first started to think that the call was odd because this person was not from the bay area. He told me he had seen ads for the camp in a local newspaper. I asked him if he had visited the website with all the information, and he said he did not. I tried to give him the url, but he didn't seem so interested. After providing as much information about the camp as I could, he started to ask me personal questions. It started innocently enough. He asked me if I was going to the camp this year. When I informed him that I was not going this year, he commented that there was no point for him to go if I wasn't going -- that he wouldn't know anyone there. Uh, hello, you don't know *me* either! He insisted that I go to the camp, and that he would even pay for my travel expenses if I went!!!! I informed him that it wasn't a cost issue, but rather that I could not get time off of work to go, which wasn't the complete truth. Now, though, if I had any thoughts of going to the camp, it was certainly extinguished by this guy. Who knows how many of these pariahs are signing up to go to camp.

Damn my politeness. I never learn that there are certain people you just don't need to be polite to. I somehow managed to stay on the phone long enough with this creep for him to ask me where I was from, what I did, and whether or not I had a lover. WTF!?!?! Enough was enough. I provided the url to the website and told him if he had any more questions, he could email the general distro. Then I hung up.

What I found more infuriating than this creep calling me was that I was put in this position by the organizers of the camp. I went to the website and there it was, my cell phone, name, and email address or the entire world to see. What was more worrisome was that this guy claims to not have visited the website. Was my phone number provided in the vietnamese newspaper that has national distribution? Why on earth is it necessary to provide ANYONE with my cell phone number when our non-profit has an office?!?!?!

I felt so betrayed.

Such has been my bizarre day. Surely it will get better. Evan's making dinner, so that's pretty exciting. AND there's a Grey's Anatomy. w00t.




My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad

I drank too much last night, got bills to pay,
my head just feels in pain
I missed the bus and there'll be hell today,
I'm late for work again
And even if I'm there, they'll all imply
that I might not last the day
And then you call me and it's not so bad,
it's not so bad and

I want to thank you
for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you
is having the best day of my life

Push the door, I'm home at last
and I'm soaking through and through
Then you hand me a towel
and all I see is you
And even if my house falls down,
I wouldn't have a clue
Because you're near me and

I want to thank you
for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you
is having the best day of my life

thankful

...for not finding anything on sale at the mall, which meant that I didn't end up spending money. And for left-overs that taste just as good one day later...

thankful

...for donut holes and friends and traditions...

thankful

...for free food and the opportunity to bond with coworkers

thankful

...for events that go exactly as planned

thankful

...for flexible work arrangements that allow you to sit at home in front of your laptop

thankful

...for having enough work to fill a 10 hr. day...

thankful

Woops! No internet connection while in Tahoe. Looks like I fell behind again...

Here's my catch-up post. I am thankful:
...for having the trust and appreciation of the Partner on your project (3/10)
...for having one of the most patient snowboarding buddies EVER, and for not getting injurred (3/11)
...for learning how to ski for the first time, and liking it! (3/12)

thankful

...for complex questions that I don't have the answers to (yet) and which make me think

A Blessing A Day

A couple of years ago, during lent, I made it a point to ask myself each day, what was something that I was thankful for that day. Beyond asking myself that, I often asked my friends. We go through life so focused on the bad things that happen, or so worried about the bad things that *could* happen that sometimes we miss the little things that we ought to really appreciate. These little things can really keep you going even through the toughest of days.

During that lent season, I also found that to some degree, I liked myself better. I didn't get so easily bent out of shape or dwell on unpleasantries. Each day, I walked away with one new thing to be happy about, things I never thought of to appreciate before, things that I could continue to be happy about in the future.

So, I've decided to continue this practice of finding a gem in each day. I invite you to do the same, and to share your findings. Maybe you can help me find even more things to be happy about! Since lent started a week ago, I have some catching up to do, but I think I've managed to find at least one thing for each day that has passed.

I was thankful:
...for being able to avoid jaw surgery (3/8)
...for random food creations that turn out to be tasty (3/7)
...for not having to cook after a long day at work, cuz you have
enough left-overs (3/6)
...for the small changes in your life that keep things interesting (3/5)
...for chocolate fountains! (3/4)
...for the gift of music (3/3)
...for friends that will come over late at night to listen and act
as a sound board (3/2)
...for schedules that just work out (3/1)




And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again